Tomorrow is my birthday…a big one, but not a milestone. When I blow out my birthday candles, I will have so many wishes but the greatest is a wish for a cure for Type 1 and food allergies.
Last night, KC and I watched the movie “Letters to God” –a heartwrenching story of a young boy, dying of cancer, who encourages prayer by writing letters to God. Painful to watch, especially in light of the death of Trey Erwin, the son of a friend of a friend, who lost his battle with pancreatic cancer this past Thursday. Both the boy in the movie and Trey have shown a strength of faith that is truly awe-inspiring. I try to have such faith. But I must admit, I am still angry. Yeah, I know, KC “only” has Type 1–” it could be worse.” I am angry that ANY disease can kill a child, slowly or quickly. No parent should have to bury a child. I know I have to have faith that God has a purpose for KC–and her T1 is part of the purpose. I accept that…I guess I still struggle with my purpose.
Four years ago, I was putting together a graduation video for the daughter of a friend–we used the song “My Wish” by Rascall Flatts. I cried then…crying for the beauty of possibility. Possibility–the beauty of the word struck me last night as I watched the credits of “Letters to God” Possibility Productions. The movie used “My Wish” as part of the soundtrack….I cried again. This time because I realize that my wish for KC that ” her dreams stay big, and her worries stay small” has already been broken. She will always have the worry of her disease–and it isn’t a small worry. When she treats it as a small worry, as she did this morning when she forgot to Bolus her breakfast, it can quickly become a huge worry. I hate that her 12 year-old life already has such a big worry. But as I reread these lyrics, I see that maybe my purpose is defined there….so that she knows somebody loves her and wants the same things too. Someone to support her every dream and tell her she can do it.
So for both my sweet children, my birthday wish this year and every year:
I hope the days come easy and the moments pass slow
And each road leads you where you want to go
And if you’re faced with the choice and you have to choose
I hope you choose the one that means the most to you
And if one door opens to another door closed
I hope you keep on walkin’ ‘til you find the window
If it’s cold outside, show the world the warmth of your smile
But more than anything, more than anything
My wish for you
Is that this life becomes all that you want it to
Your dreams stay big, your worries stay small
You never need to carry more than you can hold
And while you’re out there gettin’ where you’re gettin’ to
I hope you know somebody loves you
And wants the same things too
Yeah, this is my wish
I hope you never look back but you never forget
All the ones who love you and the place you left
I hope you always forgive and you never regret
And you help somebody every chance you get
Oh, you’d find God’s grace in every mistake
And always give more than you take
But more than anything, yeah more than anything
My wish for you
Is that this life becomes all that you want it to
Your dreams stay big, your worries stay small
You never need to carry more than you can hold
And while you’re out there gettin’ where you’re gettin’ to
I hope you know somebody loves you
And wants the same things too
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